LOVELUST&LIFE

meet me halfway

2010-03-19T04:55:00.003+08:00

What's with my life? Nothing much. It is absolutely boring. I had my 2nd day of attachment at Dempsey's Margarita's today. I asked about my working hours and they told me that I basically have to come 6 days a week from 5.30pm till 11pm. That's not too bad, ey? It's kinda like working part-time. Except that the place is shit far. (Fucking have to walk my fat-ass up the stupid hill and still search for block 11 somemore.) I am secretly thankful for my superbly good sense of direction.

I'm even contemplating of continuing doing part-time over at Marmalade in the morning. HMM. Still thinking. I don't really want to because having no evening-life for the next 6 months already sounds pretty horrid to me. I don't wanna have to lose whatever morning-life I have left, not that I have much of it in the first place.

Sheikh sent me to work today. And also picked me up. Apparently because this Cik Abang is fearful of me being scooped up by this other asshole. Not trying to say that I am not one myself, but this other one is really one that you should be wary of. Nevertheless, a very sweet gesture I must say. We had supper at Simpang Bedok followed by a redundant chilling session at Esplanade. Just came back, by the way! It's 5.16am now and I am on the phone with Sheikh. (HE'S TELLING ME RIGHT NOW, RIGHT THIS VERY INSTANT THAT I HAVE MAJOR MOODSWINGS CCB.) Where got!!!! Hpmh. :(

Anyway, yesssss I've been spending a little too much time with Sheikh. And this baby kuat jealous, ya ampun. Not too different from me ah actually. HAHA.

we are the world

2010-03-15T16:23:00.001+08:00

No thanks Sheikh for singing this to me 24/7. I am now hooked. Lol.

asyik

2010-03-15T14:59:00.002+08:00

"Live life fully while you're here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don't try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human."

Of course, many thanks to that little girl who eased the burden of my brain and helped me with my choice of drink, lol. It is but a favourite now, me thinks! It was supposed to be like a girls thing but we all pretty much ended up doing our own thing but most importantly, still had a lot of fun. Anyway, I saw Jimi and was very, very stunned to learn that he was from Deyi. MHHH. I swear he doesn't look familiar to me. 4 years can reallllly do a lot of damage, isn't it?

And Cosmic was but the best time ever, plus best feeling ever and I enjoyed it so much. You would have noticed by now that I cannot be bothered with pictures.

At the moment, life is treating me well.

for you

2010-03-12T13:19:00.001+08:00

piss off

2010-03-12T03:44:00.000+08:00

Masturina, I'm not even snatching Afiq from you. When he asked for my number & we contacted, it was when both of you have broken up and so you are invisible to me. So don't even talk to me as if we are arguing over Afiq. Because we are not. I am pissed with you in the first place because you are insensitive for blogging your conversation with Ifad in the first place. HMMM WHY WERE YOU EVEN TALKING TO IFAD ABOUT ME AND AFIQ IN THE FIRST PLACE? Ponder, ponder. At that moment, korang dah break-up what right? So apasal engkau sibuk sangat about the fact that me and Afiq are dating? Were you purposely trying to start a fire, provoking Ifad in the manner that you did for him to say such stuffs? And come on, Ifad and I both know that he exaggerated what he said to you by a lot. Of course even if I try to clear the air, no one will listen to me because I'm the school slut what. I don't have a good enough reputation to make people trust me which is fine because none of you matter to me. Oh by the way, I was freaking drunk at Supperclub. I couldn't even bother if I had a nip-slip. Why would I have given two fucks about you?

ladies

2010-03-12T03:32:00.002+08:00

Yes, very good. So much for having mad fun. Despite being completely aware that I was working at 12noon the next day, I still partied my fat ass off till the morning and was still under the block with Azli until I was shivering in the morning cool. I ended up walking up at 11.15am, cabbing to work, wasting another $20 and I kept falling asleep at work! Zzzzz.

During my break, I went to Parkway Parade, cashed out my cheque and bought $70 worth of bangles, rings and a completely useless bag-holder from Diva. They are super pretty so I am not complaining (that much). Lol. I also treated myself to scones and cookies because walking around alone in a place so unfamiliar can get really tiresome!

For the night, I had quite a number of plans at hand! Lol. I ended up choosing to meet Afiq because he'll be leaving for Pahang in a few hours. And, he died over the past 2 days so yalah. He is pretty much an obvious choice. Although we ended up only going to Grandlink (again) to sing our mighty hearts out. By choosing this, I had ditched sleepover plans at Yana's, movie-date with Sheikh, partying at Dbl O with the fellas, session at Zirca with Erwan and Azli's plan which I don't know really know what is it. Hahahaha. Nevermind lah. Bukan selalunya itu anak hilang dari pandangan aku kan.

on-job training

2010-03-09T08:34:00.002+08:00

I recently started my attachment. It's been a week now. For my DHHM course, I chose a restaurant instead of a hotel. I figured that even if we would be at a hotel, it would mostly be banquet work anyway. Not my cup of tea. That's why I've landed myself at Margarita's. I'm current posted to their East Coast Road outlet. It's so boring there, I could faint. Just a week more and then I'll be transferred over to Dempsey. Yay. :P Dempsey's currently undergoing a renovation now. I heard that there's a non-stop crowd over there and that it's twice as big as the one at East Coast. I can't wait!!!

For now, it's one hour bus rides to the East everyday for me.

Cosmic

2010-03-09T06:44:00.004+08:00

The other day, well last Saturday actually, when we were at Explorerkids or something like that at E Hub for Faris' birthday.. the food spread was majorly disappointing! I only enjoyed the Custard Puff :( The rest of the time, I was drinking so much Chrysanthemum Tea that I had to pee so many timesxzxzxz.

Ibu, Darlene, Dinnie and I went to Tampines One after that. It was there that Ibu kept trying to buy us stuff. But I couldn't think of anything to buy at all. -___- I ended up just getting those ribbon hairpins to wear at Cosmic Gate.

We were having dinner at Macs until 9pm and I was sure that I was going to be late since I couldn't reach Zouk in time for their Happy Hour but luckily Afiq texted and asked if I wanted to go together with him since he was at Bedok. But lo and behold, the motherfire came at 9.45pm and then still can scold me somemore hor!!! -_-

"Hello. Kau lambat abeh kau boleh marah aku eh?" - Meow
"Yalah that's the way it goes what." - Afiq

Pfffts. Lol but that's the way he is ah, very cheebye to the core one this boy. (: Of course he also has his fair share of sweetness lah okay. He walked to my house last evening and accompanied me and my boredom until it was time for me to meet Ifad. And he usually doesn't mind being a scapegoat to make sure I fall asleep. Cos you see.. I like to fall asleep on the phone. Because when I go to sleep at my own will, I usually can't sleep.

Anyway, back to Cosmic. Of course we didn't make it in time, but we still did have a lot of fun. The intoxication was just enough to make us enjoy the whole damn thing and yet remember every single thing. Me like. :P

I'm on the phone with Ifad now at 7am. I cannot sleep! Padahal we just met last night for dinner at Causeway followed by a lot of taiti and chilling all the way till 2am. And when I got home, I made pancakes, talked to Afiq and went to bed. And then I woke up for I-have-no-idea-what-reason at 6.15am, made tea and toasted bread and ate my breakfast and then I couldn't sleep anymore.

Haiyah. Sad life. Anyway, what's with the hatetaggers anyways? What did I do this time? I haven't blogged any nonsense since forever and I haven't taken any stupid pictures in life forever as well for you to come snooping about like a crazy dog. Geram sahaja.

swing swing

2010-03-08T04:35:00.004+08:00

I was sleeping like a pig all day yesterday. After Cosmic, I was sooooo depleted of my energy that I slept all the way till 3pm. Seriously, it was such a lazy Sunday. I got up, had pancakes for brunch, did my chores and went back to sleep. If it wasn't for this Afiq who at 9pm called me and feeling feeling wanna karaoke at Grandlink, I would have snored all the way till Monday. We karaoke-d will 1.30am. :P Hahaha. And that my friend, is the 3rd time that I've been to karaoke this week lol.

zzzz

2010-03-06T13:58:00.004+08:00

Last night, even though was super impromptu with Utt making me very confused with his fickle-minded decisions, was well.. fun. Not as happening as karaoke-ing which I initially was supposed to do with Afiq. But I liked it. I think it's mostly because I liked how we all felt. But of course that fat-ass of a tak-pakai-coli, man-boob DJ was disappointing. I'd love to go to another one of Effen's set again. Irfan was saying that he'd be at the next Fresh party. *Kening naik naik*

Anyways. It's Faris' birthday party at Downtown today. My cute little nephew's turned 4! I'm waiting for my darling Darlene to come home from her child slavery at Mac Donald's and then we're gonna head off. I hope there will be lots of really, really good food! Haha. :P And afterwards, I'm going to be meeting Niny at town for Ayam Penyet! Perangai fat girl sangat please.

P.S. Nasib baik malam we all going to the gym HAHAHA.

you

2010-03-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

I was at Zirca last Wednesday. Supposedly, I needed to be at Clarke Quay by 10.30pm. But I was working earlier in the day, followed by a lonely shopping session of toiletries (I even bought a bottle of Virgin Bloody Mary lol. What a random choice of drink. -___- ) and after that I slept like a pig and this little piggy woke up at 11pm. Ended up having to pay $22 for cab fare. Zzzz waste money only. At least I had a lot of fun! Met a couple of new people and a really cute tak-sunat boy. Lol.

Anyway, I have sore eyes!! :( Sore throat last week and sore eyes now. Betul punya budak penyakit lah I ni. At least the good news is that I have 3 days MC. :P Best giler, I like. Haha.

ada cinta

2010-03-03T18:47:00.002+08:00

Slowly, try hard to blend into the background. The less eyes around, the better. The less ears, the less hearsays we can expect. No more drama for you, little girl. And if there's no more love for you, it's okay. I still love you.

tough times

2010-03-02T13:26:00.004+08:00

"You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, And I'll be there
You are my love, You are my heart
And we will never ever-ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
"We're just friends"
What are you sayin?
Said there's another and looked right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time."

And then you finally made your decision.

innocence

2010-02-20T19:47:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting Nadd's call right now. Waiting for some magical plan to pop up while I replay in my head whatever that was said by my brother earlier on. You guys have always been right. I am such a mess. He said of stuffs which were not new to me, because at some point of my life, someone else already mentioned it. But I chose to ignore it. Mostly because the voices I heard weren't the most sincere and they came in hard and so loud it deafened me. They didn't speak to me pleadingly to wake up, either. So I continued to be blinded by my foolishness. Tonight, we are going to start anew. I've made enough mistakes to keep on living as if whatever bullshit these voices are saying shouldn't be affecting me. I'm going to follow my brother's footsteps and we will see where that leads us to. Secrets that are meant to be kept in the dark, will stay in the dark.

For the record, I love you so much. With all my heart, all my soul and it makes me want to cry thinking of how much I have hurt you, and everyone else that matters to me. I don't think that I could bear to see the look on your face either.

Catch-up

2010-02-20T08:29:00.002+08:00

Some people say the official length of that 'honeymoon period' in a new relationship for a dating couple is between eight and twelve months - that is how long it takes to get the relationship 'itch'. Well, apparently that didn't apply to my favourite Babiboy. What does that mean then? Mhhh.

I had a great time with Ifad last night. He picked me up after work, we had a really nice dinner at Trattoria (finally!) over at 313 Somerset. The food spread was fabulous and I had a really good Seafood Linguini. I would love to come back another day for the tomato based pastas and the pizzas. :) Too bad, I didn't bring my camera! Stupid me, actually forgot all about it until I was in the cab, on the highway, on the way to work. Zzzz. Nevermind. I hope that there'll be a next time for that place soon. We watched The Wolfman too. Good times. :)

The past few nights have been hectic! On Tuesday and Wednesday night, I was actually up all night chilling out with the guys from Delifrance and Pastamania. I didn't get much sleep from both nights and still on Thursday night, I chose to follow Afiq and friends to JB at 12.30am! Haha. I didn't regret that one because we had some really good food at Pandan City. The Naan was amazing! And I got to annoy Ban like mad and watch him squeal when there was a cat watching him while he ate. Super funny sight, I tell you.

It's 8.40am on this lazy Saturday morning now. I start work in 1 hour and 15 min. Be right back.

just let me be there for you

2010-02-17T15:31:00.006+08:00

I didn't realise that people could crumble when they are fuelled by the feelings they can't control. Maybe they tried. Maybe hard enough or maybe not. But at one point of time when you're all alone and the silence is eating you up, you start to think. I am surprised as to how at that moment, your overwhelming emotions do not give two fucks about who is sitting right infront of you. Your alter ego is revealed, like it or not. Afterall, we are only human.

Anyway, I am officially sick because I have officially lost my voice. Motherfire.

se moh?

2010-02-16T15:58:00.004+08:00

The Chinaman dishwasher that we have at work and I were trying to communicate just now. It was so funny!!!! Him and his limited English. Me with my almost zero knowledge of Mandarin. Lolzzxzxz. I really need to start learning more than "I want to eat", "I want go and smoke", "How are you?", "Can or not?", "My ass is big" and "Your penis is small". Hahahaha. :P

Time check: 5.30pm.

4 hours and 30 min more before I end work!!!! Zzzz the wait is killing me. All this standing up is making my spider vein pop out. Hahaha. No really, I'm serious. Have you seen them? They're hideous. Eeerks. The only possible way I have a chance of getting them out is by using another of Palmer's cream which is another whooping $40 odd.

All it took me to abandon my Scar Serum was about 3 days of usage. It's my collecting dust in my dressing table's drawer. You know how they say that there are no ugly women, only lazy women? Yeah well it's true alright.

(P.S. This super cute customer who just came in ordered Marinated Beef Fajitas & the Cripsy Chicken Salad which is like totally my favourite items from the menuuu! Ahhh, I am in love. Haha.)

shut it down

2010-02-16T11:46:00.005+08:00

"I wish I had a first love whom I could put my money on. I guess first loves doesn't work on everybody."

I watched Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief with Afiq last Saturday. It was a very last minute, super impromtu plan. The only plan we had up until the time he picked me up from home was that we were supposed to head over to East Coast because he had to run some errands. This motherfire always has a tendency to ask me out but then when we are out, we'd be planless. Idiot.

When it finally got on my nerves, I went to lash out my favourite rule: "Lain kali kalau kau tak tahu maner nak pergi, kau jangan nak ajak aku keluar okay." :P

Life without a phone is super tough. I feel so... disconnected from the world. The worse part is that I am pathetic at memorising numbers. On that Saturday night, my colleagues at Marmalade were so hard-up about partying together. Supposedly, it was a way to make up for all the the times Nadd and I ditched our plans with them for our own.

Nadd called to say that we will be going to Zirca. So after my movie, Afiq sent me to Clarke Quay to meet Nadd and we paid for our covers. It was early so we walked slowly to Home and aparently, everyyyyyyyyyyone was there. =_____= Wah piang, sad lor. And everyone was pestering Nadd and I to just ditch Zirca. And I'm glad I didn't because the moment I stepped into Zirca via Rebel, I saw my favourite boy.

:DDDDDDDDD Suke. It was such coincidence, and a very good one as well. We were supposed to celebrate Valentines together that evening, until I dropped the bomb about partying with my colleagues and we decided that that evening wouldn't do us good. I spent almost all night with Ifad, apart from the times that we went back to the table for the drinks. But he left early with his friends, probably around 3.45am if my memory serves me well.

And and andddddddddd, did you know that I'll be working all week this week? I end at 10 every single day except for Friday and Saturday. :( I have no off-days. Just days that end earlier to make me a little happier. I will be going out with Ifad Babiboy on Friday. :P Yayness. I hope we can go someplace that sells yummy ice-cream. *Hint hint* Lol. And I cannot wait to get me a new phone!!! Just a super cheap 7-11 one that I can afford to lose every month will do. All this distance from the outside world is making me depressed. Hahaha.

My cough is still terrible. It hurts my chest madlyyyyy and my throat feels croaky and my phlegm(?) comes out all greenish, like the guacamole we put on our Vegetable Taco at work. And yet I feel like drinking Peach Milk Tea with extra pearl and peach jelly! Hahahaha.

EYECANDY

2010-02-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

I was in town just now and while smoking, I saw someone so familiar. I hope he's on (my) FB. Lol. Anyway, I have a sorethroat now. It's depressing me. I can't sing, I can't speak and the ache is disturbing me. This sucks. Jamal bought me a box of Strepsils though, after we watched Valentines Day (which by the way is what I thought was a really cute movie!). I hope I get well soon and not get Antiseptic Lozenges overdose. :P

HEY! LETS KICK IT

2010-02-13T17:21:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling extra extra loopy this afternoon.
Love you forever; you and your (hopefully) sexy struts (probably) right now

Mad As Hatters

2010-02-13T15:31:00.004+08:00

Last night was pretty much mad fun. I am so glad that I met Yana K midway while walking back to Supperclub. The girls and I lived it up ourselves first before stumbling happily into the club. & I am glad for the fact that this time, it was more of having fun partying rather than having fun taking pictures lol :D

Last night, everyone was naughtier than expected!
But it's all good.

matreps at work

2010-02-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

Customer: Sini ader take-away?
Me: Ader.
Customer: Makanan ajer?
Me: No lah. Everything on the menu.
Customer: Oh. Number boleh take-away?

pasos de tango

2010-02-12T11:17:00.005+08:00

"There's a place downtown where the freaks all come around. It's a hole in the wall, it's a dirty free for all. And they turn me on when they take if off."

Oooh yeah. I hope everyone else ditches Aldrin at Zouk today. :P

I'm at work again (!!!!). Boring. Actually I wasn't scheduled to work but with easy money like this e.g. making my own steaming up of mocha when I'm thirsy (nevermind the fact that I don't really enjoy coffee), webcamming online, facebooking, having no customers to attend to, going to make a huge portion of my yummy cripsy chicken salad for lunch later on, going for a smoke break after that and hopefully I won't have constipation in the middle of my smoke break again like I did the last time lol. Anyway yeahh why not, right? I requested for Surina to hand me over her 10am-6pm shift today.

Afiq's gonna be coming over when I'm done. Well that's what he says. And then we're gonna head over to Supper at night. We'll find something to do while waiting for time to pass. Maybe my good friend Mr Cabernet will be of help. Hohoho.

Yesterday, I met Ifad after my last(!!!) UT. We went over to KK for a while for a smoke and then he walked me to the MRT station. We had this talk. It didn't bother me much because I have never really thought about it. But the fact that he's still thinking of trying is overwhelming. I don't understand the way things work sometimes. Whatever it is, atleast I have our Valentines' date to look forward to next weekend. We'll see where the road leads us.

we made you!

2010-02-11T19:38:00.003+08:00

Hmmm busy girl's at work now. And finally it's the end of whatever tremendous torture that being a part of DHHM's Year 2 holds for me. Technically, it wasn't that bad. Especially the last 3 weeks whereby good grades seems to be abundant when you're always punctual. Or early, on those occasional days. Mhh that is, if I don't land myself with another semester thanks to my frail GPA. Don't think it'd be quite a good idea to get my hopes up at this point. :/

But one good thing to be excited about would be the numerous plans that's lined up. YUMMY! :P

fast deals

2010-02-10T01:53:00.008+08:00

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i hate ut

2010-02-10T01:06:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah. 3 down, 2 to go. It's going to be busy day today. UT in the morning, IIP meeting in the afternoon and in the later part of the day, hopefully succeed in finding whatever Jamal's hunting out at City Hall. The best part is that I only have $10 left until my next pay. Awesome.

ROLLERCOASTER

2010-02-10T00:04:00.004+08:00

Last week, we had a lot of fun. Oh yes we were kicking ass, the 5 of us girlies. It was in celebration of Rin's birthday but I was such an asshole that I actually went over to wish Amier's girlfriend even though I knew it was Rin's. Zzzz siang siang dah trip, my friend.

What was supposed supposed to be a night of fun turned out quite the opposite. Something happened somewhere in the middle which made me almost swear off the drinks. Almost. And I lost (Dinnie's) phone. Which of course I promise to replace by the end of next week. WTF I lost my phone, again. Zzzz I am so careless. I just lost my phone a month back and I lost it again. Haiyo, really someone needs to knock a huge amount of sense into me. I really need to be more watchful (and awake) the next time around.

Somehow I landed myself in a huge mess but luckily I had Afiq to come and save me from myself. Luckily he was one of the few numbers I remember. (Really, I am bad at memorising. If you ask me now, I only know my home's, my mum's, Danial's, Afiq's and Ifad's.) And when you were in my position that night, you'd probably call for help from someone closest to home as well.

And last weekend, the girls (or atleast those who bothered/could make it) and I had our own little pre-Valentines' dinner at Breeks. It's just a small get-together which I would say was quite unsuccessful because there are about 8 of us babygirls. Only 3 turned up, which was Liyana, Nadd and I. A little disappointing I would say, given the amount of notice we gave.

The night's plans were so impromtu. I didn't get much pictures because I left my camera in my bag and half the time, my bag was under Ody's seat and the rest of the time, it was in Ody's hand. If I didn't have Ody, I probably would be in another big mess like all the messes I always get myself into. Sayang Ody. Heh heh heh.

So, it was first Powerhouse. But somehow it switched to Zirca. And then it switched to Supperclub. It was a whole load of mess out at Supperclub and you could imagine how sardine-packed it was in the club. Bad idea. So we were back at Clarke Quay. And then Forbidden City, where it was the start to most things. Ifad was there. (: So was the rest of the rocker boys that I have been neglecting like mad over the past 2 weeks. We all know why.

And then at 2.30am, Nadd and I scooted our ass over to Zirca where Erwan (our bar manager at work) then paid for our covers and pretty much placed us in a spot where we could do nothing else but party. Even Deeps as well as Yan who is our assistant manager who is an old boring man stuck in a young bud's body was there, but we had good fun even though he forced me to down that shitty Fiji water.

Living Room after Zirca and then Ody literally decided to take control and send me home. No more drink, drunk, drama he says. :) Love you always, Ody! Hahaha. :P

current love

2010-02-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

I am so in love with this song. I wish they had an official video for it. :( And I wish some other girl on Youtube with a great voice and has got her thing going on on the acoustic guitars was just as much in love with this song as I am. And she'd do a great cover of it. And I'd be in love with that version. And that will be what that would be on this post tonight. And than being a sappy lovesick asshole, I would have it specially dedicated to someone.

It's Valentines' this weekend. Aren't you feeling the love?

Get rich or die trying.

2010-02-06T15:18:00.004+08:00

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2010-02-04T12:20:00.003+08:00

I have something very dramatic to tell you. Pfffft. I'll tell you later on, once I'm back from lunch with Afiq. I hope his sister cooks well. :)

(We are famished!!!!!!)

seerpryze

2010-02-03T09:08:00.002+08:00

I was walking to school this morning, already making my way from my house carpark. Then, someone shocked the fuck out of my guts when he grabbed my torso from behind. I spun around and received a really good surprise.

Thanks for making the effort to wake up extra, extra early today just to send me to school, Afiq Shazni. (:

hospitality practicum ut

2010-02-02T14:43:00.005+08:00

Me and the rest are in class now and we're waiting for each of our turns to do our Housekeeping Practical Test. Grrrrrrrrrr so slow please :( It's 2.51pm and there's still have a couple of teams to go. My stomach is growling like frakkkkkkkkk cos I haven't really eaten. I had pancakes before I left the house in the morning but that's not enough lol. My appetite has been growing at such a furious rate since the past few weeks. I need to eat like once every hour, I think! Lol. :P

I found a tiny rip at the side of my pants, hor. Sibeh. What's worse is that during the practical later, we're going to do a lot of bending down, squating and kneeling while making the bed and cleaning up the toilet. PFFFFT. Double sibeh. I seriously hope my pants don't tear. It'll be sucha sight to behold. *Cringes* On the bright side, atleast it's at the side and not right in the middle of my fat ass. Lol.

HMMMM OKAY.

I am very sleepy now because I was up studying during most of last night. And I have been trying to stay awake since just now. =___________= And some bugger was so cute lah last night!!!! Lol. Cos I didn't really talk on the phone to him at work since I had company, and when I reached home, I didn't text or call either because I was so dead tired that I went to take a catnap for the next hour and a half. And then someone jealous. HAHAHAHA AWWW.

Since when did you get so clever at being all green-eyed ni huhhhhhh? Lol.

SUGAR RUSH

2010-02-02T01:43:00.003+08:00

I was feeling very light-hearted about the fact that Ifad gave me very nice surprise of an impromtu visit while I was at work just now and then we talked and talked endlessly until I knocked off from work. It was the hardest 1 hour, because I kept fumbling with anything I held in my fingers, kept dropping stuffs and knocking over even more stuffs while trying to put up a decent conversation lol. We talked about all sorts of things. About (his) mistakes this time, about the present, about the decisions we have made, about feelings.

I find it amazing now how even after I know everything, from whatever that happened at Zoukout until whatever bullshit that happened recently, I still have the same wallpaper on my phone and I still feel the same way about everything. However, I am looking at issues and the people involved in it from a different light. I know now that you can be bitching the fuck out about a person but then, you may not be so innocent afterall. In fact, you could be just the same. This great realisation helped me a lot in my current plight.

And.

To my ex-boyfriend's fling, scandal, distant past, stalker, what-not:
GET THE FUCK OUT MY FACE, MY BUSINESS, MY EVERYTHING.
Me and you are not related.

baby

2010-02-01T12:41:00.001+08:00

fat girl goes cycling

2010-02-01T09:48:00.004+08:00

Bad morning today. ): I woke up with terrible aches all over my body due to last evening’s cycling session. I didn’t know cycling could hurt my ass so much :O I was late for school today! Zzzz what a waste of sleeping early last night. (I slept at like 12.30am while the rest of my male friends went their own ways to watch soccer. Pffft. Aku sungguh tak paham these shits. Lol.)

And I just came back from my smoke break with Afiq and Waan. Waan was growling about not wanting to go to NS too early. And know what is the reason? Because he wants to watch World Cup first. ????? What the?

I think the Nasi Lemak Sambal Udang that I had for breakfast is working its magical effects on me. I am sooooooo sleepy. My face looks like this now. =______________=

Last night I had a pretty good conversation with E and man, I never thought that I would ever even mumble an alphabet to E.. like, ever! Hahaha. :P :P He's the reason why I even bothered with partying in the first place. Heh heh heh.

Are we human? Or are we dancerrrrrrrs?

bring me back some

2010-01-31T12:25:00.003+08:00

Please enlighten me as to how this narbey cheebye can somehow successfully psycho me to head over to East Coast right now (!!!!!) (it's freaking 12.30pm lah pfft and i've only slept 3 hours) to cycle and bullshit on the breakwater. Seriously, someone needs to knock some sense into the motherfire.

And that motherfire needs to know when to ask the right questions at the right time. It is not a clever move to ask me one of the most significant questions that he might ever ask, right after I have partied my ass away & am fucking sleepy. I was probably too brain dead to make an intelligent choice, for all you know.

Okay. I have 1 hour to magically look as if I am interested to do any physical activity right now.

2010-01-30T15:35:00.008+08:00

"Yeah, it's pretty easy to get over a break-up if it wasn't a real relationship in the first place!"

secret heart

2010-01-30T14:34:00.005+08:00

No doubt, last night did spark something higher than what we have been accustomed to. We spoke of it, we paused and (I) giggled silly about it. And (I) brushed away the thought while he probably had it lingering over his head until I was too tired to even mumble a full sentence.

I mean well. Which is why some decisions I might have to make sooner or later have to be thought thoroughly. And this time, because people can be such fucks when they feel like they have been denied a position in the picture,I'm not just going to take only myself into consideration like I always do.

I'm at work now. I'm bored. Someone offered to secure me a place at Zouk tonight. Oh yes, I am very tempted. :)

enjoy

2010-01-30T03:57:00.002+08:00

baby come come home

2010-01-29T14:44:00.004+08:00

Something interesting happened during lunch today. Unlike others, I'm not going to dedicate an entire post to address something which is totally redundant and insignificant. It's just sad that an issue cannot be addressed & instead, given the circumstances, chosen to be left alone to contrive. That spells stupid to me.

Looks like I have to wait for the word instead of vent anything unnecessarily behind a facade.

The slow countdown before school ends is eating me up.

There are so many things that I need to study and yet, I'm still stoning away. I have to memorise 26 different international cocktails' ingredients, method of preparation, type of glass used and garnish. On top of that, also a whole long list of grape varieties and origins for my wine knowledge. Very super sibeh if you ask me.

I've memorised only 24 drinks and probably about 6 out 40 odd grapes.
*Faints* The torture! :( :( :(

I have Financial Accounting UT next weekend and I am still stupid about a lot of things. And I have this disability of not-whining about my responsibilities. And oh yes, I wanna watch My Ex later on. I wonder if it is any good.

about you

2010-01-29T09:37:00.004+08:00

TGIF! Ooohh yeah finally. (: There will be nothing much for me to look forward for in school (except for the fact that I'd probably want to visit Amee & Aida at their entrepreneurship booth during lunch). But I am excited for where I'll be going tonight.

He was thinking we have ice-cream. Nana, who's my ex-supervisor at STE, has been wanting me to dine at Trattoria @ 313 Somerset. I've seen the place. It's a very alfresco type of quick casual dining and I love the menu spread. Maybe that place might be a good choice.

the party dont stop, no

2010-01-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

I have like about 25 more minutes before my RJ deadline closes. I have only 1 out 5 paragraphs done and I am tempted to call Afiq now because I know he is waiting for my call.

I wish I had a better name than Afiq to call him. When he was much more sickly, it was fun calling him Budak Penyakit and then seeing his stupid reaction but then he's better now so that name's out. I really have no good nickname to give him. We just lovingly call each other names like stupid, bodoh, babi, gemuk, boncit, ass, kanina, motherfucker, cb peh perempuan, jantan sundal and the list could go on.

We hardly give each other the sweeter Babys unless we've just eaten or just smoked which puts us in a better mood.

It's nice how we are so vulgar and annoy the fuck out of each other during each of our most irritating moments and lol, (my) piss drunk moments and yet at the end of the day, can still try to hold a pretty intelligent conversation. We both have kinda agreed that we're not that lucky to have brilliant minds. What would we be doing with each other then? Lol.

(Found that online and I thought it was hilarious. Lol.)

The other day he pissed me off and I was acting all sulky hahahaha mentel kan perangai and he replied me with "Eleh, bile i step merajok kena maki. Beh u, nak i pujok. Come kiss my ass."

Hopeless romantic much? Hahaha. Motherfire.

learn to move your ass

2010-01-28T16:13:00.002+08:00

baby you need to come home

2010-01-28T14:41:00.004+08:00

It's Financial Accounting module today, again. AHHHHH the horror. Even worse, pagi-pagi dah nampak Avatar. Nevermind that. Petang pon. How unlucky can I be? Don't they live away in the jungle or something where it's lonely and they are supposed to live and dwell in their own little tempurung and they can blabber all their shit as much as they want and no one gives 2 fucks?

I know rightttttttt!. I'm sucha whiny girl. I've got all this anger I've contained successfully. I wonder why. I think it must be the love I have for one and the constant thought of the wretch that still attempts to leech on things that have failed. It's disgusting. Especially when one gets freaking contradicting.

Alah okay lah okay lah.
No use being such a girl.

Tsk :/

you have got to be kidding me

2010-01-28T11:40:00.002+08:00

I got a major shock when I was fed with 2 pieces of very revealing news earlier today. But because they contain valuable information with regards to security, respect for someone else's personal space and basic goodwill on my part, I won't be disclosing anything at all. However, what I can tell you is that I will never, ever go to that place againa and I am once again reminded that you should never judge a book until you are able to read between the lines of the book.

And hey Avatar, I think you've gotta start polishing up your act too.

its so true

2010-01-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

I really wish I had something to say but I really don't. Life isn't taking a toll on me. It's just that now that I am back to being a butterfly, I'm keeping myself busy with work or else, I'm just (attempting) to get my head into schoolwork. I have my tests coming up in a week and I am obviously not prepared. :( I have a huge feeling that I've run out of luck and if I don't work hard, I'm going to end up regretting a couple of things that I still have the conscience to find it majorly important.

I didn't do much yesterday except for going to school, followed by accompanying Afiq to settle his stuffs at IRAS after school and then going down to AMK Hub to watch Law Abiding Citizen with Saiful after shopping for a new pair of sandals.

Also, I had (what I thought was) the most amazing dinner in a really long time. Soto ayam at ATM! :D Hahaha, been a long time. Used to have it like 3 times a week back in the secondary school days.

(For the record, Saiful is fucking annoying. Thank God I only meet him once a week, which is every Sunday when we are placed at similar shifts at Marmalade. Pfffft. And, he knocked my temple with the freezer door during the last shift I had with him. Unintentionally, of course. He may be a huge bastard but he's not that evil, I think.)

Nana came to visit us at work earlier today. :) She's been pestering me to go visit her at her workplace for the longest time. And I have, technically. I've just never really sat and dined there yet. I think I'll give it a try this Friday with Afiq, if he wants to.

And oh oh. I bought this Scar Serum today. It's $42 so I hope it freaking works. I have soooo many scars from the falls and accidents I have :( And I have spider veins which are hideous as well. Pfft. I hope to get the cream for that too. That's another $40 odd . Tsk I've probably have to get that next week or else I'll have to starve for the rest of the week,

we ride

2010-01-25T13:58:00.004+08:00

:(

Everywhere, my girls and boys are having their own turn of relationship drama. I can't say that I don't have one for myself, but I'm just swallowing it hard and trying to not let it affect me. Coming to think of it, it wasn't what was said that tore me apart. If you knew me inside out, you should know by now that I'm better than that. But it was that bit of, i don't know... betrayal? That was what ripped me into pieces. I seriously have never felt so trampled and manipulated and I had least expected for it to be the cruel intentions of someone I loved.

I hope the most of this weekend won't be wasted on the wants of our youth. I'd like it to be more special and intimate between all of us. I miss all of you.

supper

2010-01-24T11:39:00.003+08:00

I didn't expect to have much plans over the weekends, since I was busy with work on Friday and when Afiq suggested that we watch a movie after I knock off work at 10pm, I was pretty much half-hearted because we had Saturday to do that, didn't we?

And then Afiq surprised me at work. He came rushed over even though he was tied to training. Sweet. (: Haven't really had surprises like that in a long time.

Stupid boy came and started yakking away as usual and then asked me slyly if I minded partying tonight at Supperclub since his friend was spinning. And then 2 hours later, we were in Ban's car and on our way. After the Merlot that I pretty much hogged to myself, I am super glad that I was up until the party's over.

*Pats my own back*
Let's do this again. :P

Last night was quite yummy too, but I don't have time to talk about it because I have my pizza waiting for me in my oven (instant, heh heh heh), I need to find my uniform and I need to get ready for work after that. Busy girl.

mean girls

2010-01-22T15:41:00.003+08:00

I bumped into these girls last Wednesday, and it's been so long! :( Ever since we all started year 2, we don't ever have any Mean Girls lunch sessions anymore. Tsk.

my dear girl

2010-01-22T13:29:00.001+08:00

I will always be here for you, stupid girl

engrish please?

2010-01-22T10:29:00.003+08:00

When we left off on a bad end, I thought it was going to remain that way. So I can forget how comfortable I am around you, how I was once madly in love with you, how once I thought that you would never do anything to break my heart. But then, you just keep doing these litttle things that remind me why I didn't regret that night.

Please stop breaking my heart. Please stop tearing me apart.

I don't want to go back to where we were because I know what you are going to say. I know I won't change that easily and you're too impatient to wait. I know it's going to be about the same old arguments, the same old accusations, the same old me, the same old you. Because how can I trust in you when you don't trust in me? I can already imagine the disgusted look you gave me once, when you thought that I was being untrue. I'm not prepared to face that look again.

I've only had 3 hours of sleep. And this morning, someone just had to piss me off. I've so many things to handle and today's finance lesson is just not helping me at all. Time is so not on my side. :(

dont stop, make it pop

2010-01-21T15:50:00.002+08:00

Someone's probably finished his training. And we have a little mini date later on. I'm going to Cold Storage to buy some yummies to surprise him. He'll probably be hungry and cranky (maybe no, not really cos he's always sooo freaking annoying that I can't tell the difference between him being a major cb or just himself).

Our little random web-cam session in class. We'll be trying to pay attention to our individual lessons but always end up laughing to ourselves. It didn't help much that I sit right in front of the facilitator's table, lol. :P

Okay, I'm getting late. I don't want Cold Storage to be running out of sushi.

pom pipi pom

2010-01-21T14:07:00.003+08:00

My team got cheated by Nadia today. Pfft. She left us all to rot in our own skins and now we're struggling. (By we, I mean Andre and I. The other 2 are even ore hopeless than us. ) Tsk, what a sad life.

My breaks were spent with the girlies but then I had to leave early because there's just so many things to do today. Hmmm. I was supposed to settle an issue earlier on but looks like time is just not on my side. What a pity that things just haveeee to pop out in the most unexpected moments.

The good thing about today is that.. I received 2 cookies specially delivered to my class and I have a mini-date tonight. Sweeeeeet. :)

P.S Somebody's smiling to himself in the class and then it kena tegur by the faci. Bodowwwwww peh budak. Haha :P

the killers

2010-01-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

Day 2 of being a good student went well, again. I was almost late. Almooooost. Until I realised that lesson starts at 9.15am and not 9.00am. :P

Anyway, I think right.. nevermind. I think what I think should remain where the thought came up in the first place. I just didn't realise that people can be so.. I don't know? Cruel? Or just above their heads.

2010-01-19T02:21:00.002+08:00

I just found out so many depressing things earlier on. I didn't think that it would affect me, I mean.. it's been a while and I thought that I had forgotten about it all. But no, it's still lingering there. Hovering over my head as if it's sole purpose is to taunt me for being the stupid asshole that I know I am.

You don't have to try hard to mind, because I am not deaf, blind or fucken whacked out of my brains yet to not have figured it out by now.

tik tok

2010-01-18T15:33:00.004+08:00

Thanks for accompanying me last night when my body failed me, when these eyes couldn't tell the difference between day and night, when it seemed that I was much hungrier for accompaniment then I thought. Thanks for the way you speak to me in a seriously fucked up manner yet I find it adorable because it is just like the way me and the girls converse with each other. Thanks for being such a girl that you are that it gives me reason to piss you off over and over again and of course, you never get mad.

Thanks for the few hours of just you and me.
The best part is, I remember all of it this time.

star light,star bright

2010-01-18T11:49:00.003+08:00

I actually went to school without sleeping. Tsk, I am awesome. Hahaha. And when I was crossing the road to get to school, I realised that I didn't bring my phone. Very good. And I had to meet Afiq during lunch. Nevermind that. Bloody bugger wasn't online even when it was nearing lunch and I had to literally scramble around for his number. Betul punya menyusahkan diri sendiri kan aku.

Today is Day 1 of trying to be a better student. So far, so good. :)

lovedrunk

2010-01-17T13:40:00.004+08:00

I have to scoot off to work soon. Cannot go MIA again. Later kene buang kerje = i no money = i sad. Cannot cannot. Luckily I've bathed. :)

Yesterday was super gerek. I am so power that I managed to get to Zouk before 10pm and when I was still at Causeway's Cold Storage at 9pm. Save $7. Hahaha. I didn't have a book to read this time so I was stoning all the way in the train. Hmm. I think that I should go get a book soon. I love reading, you know? :)

Luckily Nadd, Brad and Jamie were outside Zouk when I came. It was so confusing as to where we should place my bag since it has Sam's birthday present in it that we couldn't bring inside. :)

And luckily Azeer suka jalan sini sana so I gave it to him and asked him to wait for us at the playgroud while we get our drinks first. And si bodow tu think that I am so stupid, tak bawak bottle opener. Sibeh underestimate my intelligence. Hahaha. (We found out later on that we didn't need a bottle opener afterall, lol.)

Everyone had their fill together. And then Amir came. (!!!!!!) I thought he died already. Cos this Amir super idiotic, don't know how to reply messages you know.

And I didn't realise that Jamie has such longggggggggggggg hair. I mean, seriously look at it. I asked her why she decided to come afterall and she went, "Because Brady forced me" in the cutest sad manner. This girl is super damn cute I tell you. Haha. (And my hait is so black, it's disgusting. Lol.)

I know we went to the playground. I know I forced Sam giler babi to drink up. I know that Afiq and I went to Shell to buy drinks. I know what happened inside Shell that made Afiq smile to himself (now) macam budak giler at home. (Cos I'm messaging him now mah, that's why I know.) And I know Sam perangai macam baby mintak kene pukul tapi aku still love her to the max. And I know I was at the podium with all my babies. And then I was outside Zouk. Tragic.

Now, I know that I have to get ready because or else, I will be late for work.

the pieces arent falling apart

2010-01-16T16:11:00.005+08:00

Hi. What am I doing at home on a Saturday afternoon, again? Hahahaha. :P I'm supposed to be at work. I'm telling you, I'm probably gonna get fired one of these days. Lol.

Last night was amazing ^o^. Yesterday was amazing. School was great.
AHHHHH. It's doing well for me and I am happy. Really.

I've had my laptop configured at school yesterday and my brain, as well, thanks to my seriously tolerant facilitator. After school, Afiq asked me out so I had to rush home and took a quick powernap before meeting up with him. Terlajak 45 min eh? Hahaha. What's new? :P

We had dinner, went to meet my friends (!!!!!!!!!!) and then watched Did You Hear About The Morgans which is easily theeeeee cutest movie ever. I had so much laughs while the budak penyakit next to me kept blowing his nose and mumbling under his breath to ask me to shut up or something.

After that, we went to party. Not literally, but still... :P

I think we ordered pancakes? I asked for about 30 pieces butter for the 6 of us. Hahaha. And I ended up eating probably half a pancake only before the nausea got to me. Ahhhhh nevermind. I'm good at pancake-making and ayah just bought a few boxes of ready mix. Hahaha.

After waking up in a state of panic because I didn't know where Afiq or Nisa was, Didi made me breakfast. Hahaha sho sweet. Lol. And now I'm hungry again. Zzzz.

It's 4.41pm. And soon, I'll have to get dressed for the meet-up with my babygirls. We're going to celebrate Sam's 18th at Zouk. :P Yayness. Nadd is so semangat, nak everyone pakai wedges. Zzzz. I know I promised everyone that I'll be at Home but then.. Chicks over Dicks anytime, baby. :P

Last week, Axwell which was superrrrrrrr impromtu went well. Bim and I had watched Cirque first and when we got out of the movie theatre, we were planless. I called Nadd and apparently everyone was at Zouk already eh? Sibeh. And the best part of it all was that I only had $20 left. I still went. And we all had fun. Only the going back part wasn't so smooth, with Daniel. We were like tourists holding on to a part in the middle of Tiong Bahru.

And somewhere along the timeline of this year, we ditched Ladies' Night and spent time together instead having dinner. Audi and Ody picked me up from my place and we went to Makansutra. Met up with the rest there and the rest was history. Hahaha. We proceeded over to SOHO Bridge where I dropped my 1-week-old flip flops into the Singapore River. The going back part wasn't as gerek as what Faizal Gerek had imagine. And well, I'm running out of intelligent stuffs to say.

Yahhhh, so that was it. Okay, 2 more hours before I have to get ready. I'm gonna rumble through my wardrobe and attempt to pick out something decent. And hey, I miss you.. did you know that? :)

buck up

2010-01-15T10:30:00.003+08:00

"Holidays are enticing only for the first week or so. After that, it is no longer such a novelty to rise late and have little to do." -Margaret Laurence

Man, I need to get that damn thing into my head. It is just freaking ridiculous to quit now. Come on baby. 20 more weeks to go.

why so emo nowadays?

2010-01-15T03:02:00.005+08:00

I just received a text that says, "To do list b4 gg to bed.. Go n bathe, brush ur teeth, wash ur leg, update facebook.. Den, start missing me." :)

Goodnight, everyone.

And happy 18th birthday, Babygrrl Samantha.
Xoxo. See you tomorrow for the big celebration.
(I hope you're reading this. Heh.)

And on a more personal note to those who think that they are a cut above the rest, the cream of the crop and the biggest piece of shit around. Look, you haven't gotten tired of it but I have grown immuned to it to the point that all I see in what you say is the redundancy of it. Save your breath and don't waste my space.

Also, if they're not getting any, would you know that their words are of truth? Come on and don't fail me. You can't be a lot more stupid than how I think you already are.

hippo-popo

2010-01-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

Someone should seriously crown me for procrastinating. I still have pictures from Countdown at Siloso. (Soooo super glad I decided to go there. I believe it beats being trampled or molested at Marina, anytime. Hahaha.) Have fun looking. I'm busy being clever in class so I'm not going to say much. :) It's financial accounting today.

New Year started so freaking well for me anyway. :P

On the first weekend of the year, we met up again for a super brief dinner and a really impromtu chill-out session at Clarke Quay. It's at times like those that I love Amir so much for being so dependable and not failing on me during the times that I fail on myself. And it's also at times like those that I appreciate Pastamania a little bit more. :)

Anyways, class is going to end soon and is it just me? Or have I not met my babygirls and boys in a seriously long time? The weekends soooo need to pick up the pace a little. :P

do do you got a first-aid kit?

2010-01-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hi. I am pissed mad with my father right now. Suuuuuper pissed and I don't usually get annoyed by the old man. I just came home and everything at home seems so shitty please. My laptop is failing on me and the one man I love so much is making me boiling mad. And I'm just swallowing it in because he is, afterall, my father. I wanted to complain to my mother but she's sleeping so yalah. :( I think I'll just message her tomorrow.

Anddddddd, my brother just asked me to Supperclub tomorrow. :O MY BROTHERRRR(!!!). Big boy already. Surprisingly, I'm still contemplating because well, I have school the next morning. I'm supposed to be diligent in coming to school and all that shit from now onwards. (Minus: Yesterday, of course.)

How now? Hahaha. :P

Betcha haven't seen pictures of my super carbon-copy-of-each-other-looking-family during our short getaway to KL 2 weeks back. :) It was short and sweet but well, I think it was a lot of fun? Haha lot's of bonding and all that jazz. (Technically, only between me and my brothers ah.) We went via flight and the flight was at 7.30am. Can you imagine that all of us only woke up at my 5.30am? Zzzzz. Latecoming pretty much runs in the family. The night before, my father action lebih only you know. Say we must leave the house by 5.30 lah, this lah that lah. Must wake up at 4am and all. Sekali you see what happened? Complete failure. Haha.

The flight was super fast, taking only 35 to 40min, I think? And the moment we touched down, we all had a really hearty Burger King breakfast. Kalau just mine, Darlene and Dinnie's food only totalled up to RM53 macam maner? Not even inclusive of the food of the two other ogres that I call my brothers. We took the KLIA express to KL Sentral (entah macam maner lah dorang spell that word) and then we cabbed to our hotel to check in. We were staying at Berjaya Times Square. The moment we entered the room, one by one hit the bed and slept, AGAIN. Zzzzzzzzz only. And I was still wearing my boots on the bed eh. Tak kene maki by the mother dah bagus. We woke up at about 1pm plus and went to eat again. Super PBG punya perangai lah family I. How can my backside not look like a mother of 3, you tell me. After that, it was just a lot of walking and sightseeing and shopping.

On day #2, I went shopping with my brothers. We first had lunch at the most awesome chicken rice stall in the whole of Bukit Bintang. (Seriously, we neverrrrrr fail to dine there each time we're in KL. It is seeeeeeeeriously the shitzxzxz.) I didn't have a phone but both my brothers did. So, I asked Darwin for his and his narbey tak nak kasi niiiii! He said that he's afraid that he'll get lost(?!?). So I veli clever. It was 3pm and then I told the boys that if ever in any circumstance that we separate by accident, we'll meet at Gloria Jean's at 6pm. And guess what? First store I went to and when I turned around, the boys were already missing. -_____- I thought they purposedly left me to rot on my own (which kinda sounds ridiculous to me now because they love me so much, they'd never leave me all by myself in a foreign country even know they know that I veli action power, can survive on my own hahaha). But I found Darwin, actually he found me, 2 and a half hours later. Danial was still missing. So we went to GJ and bought drinks while waiting for Danial. I did a lot of shopping on my own. I do more shopping when I'm alone as compared to when I am with someone. Because when I'm alone, no one ever holds me back and that is not always a good thing.

We wondered around and the boys kept having to wait for me outside stores. So cute lah them both. Before we went back to the hotel, we bought cakes from Secret Recipe. And when we passed by Subway which was pretty much down the road from Secret Recipe, we found the rest of our family buying take-out sandwiches. (Jakunnnns what they. Cos in SG kan they cannot eat at Subway hahah. :P) And then kannnnn... the Subway in KL sucks lah. Haha. Super little varieties of sauces and cookies. Especially the cookies!!!!! They only got like 3 different cookies? And don't even have Double Choc :(

That's all. I'm lazy to blog already. :P Hahaha. That night when I reached SG, the first person I met was Ifad and instead of going somewhere romantic or what lol, we went to a boring birthday chalet. Zzzzz. And I pissed the fuck out of him as usual. Why? Because I am so stupid.

Goodnight now.

angat gegerl

2010-01-13T01:53:00.006+08:00

I just came back from probably the longest day everrrr of 2010 since it started? Hahahaha, okay lah it's not that dramatic but it sure was sure full of impromtu plans. :)

I ended up chilling with Yang & Vinay in the wee hours of the morning. It was really fun, surprisingly and I listened to them tell me some seriously interesting stories in awe. They even tried teaching me how to scold in Mandarin. Lol. Cos all I know how to say is sibeh ta jia (?) and that doesn't even have a meaning, apparently.

I was at Ang Mo Kio interchange at 11am and then I felt super unwell. Ifad forced me to cab down to school and then we chilled even more at TRCC. Technically you wouldn't call it chilling if I was sleeping all the way from 12noon till about 5pm? Hahaha. PBG!

And then Ifad walked me home and we sat under this pondok (what's it called in English?) and talked. Talked and talked and talked and talked and never argued pong. On second thought, it was more like he was nagging at me to be a better girl lah. How to argue? He's apparently not good at scolding me. The boy can never put a serious face for more than 10 seconds. Lol. He even says that sometimes he forgets to scold me. WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN MANNNNN! Hahaha.

I went home to bathe and then went back out to have dinner at Banquet cos fat girl hungry lorrrrr, never eat the whole day. I got ready at a super fast timing also. I was ready in 40min. Cepat righttttts. That's like 20min faster than I had reckoned.

We both had the same thing. Minced Chicken Noodle and I ate like super fast lor! I was already finished with my food and he was still digging into the noodles. Once again, PBG!!! Hahaha. Wait, do you even know what PBG means? Hahaha. It's Perangai Budak Gemok, actually. Just in case you didn't know and got lost somewhere. :P

I needed to head down to Marmalade after that, to take my pay. Sibehhhhhhhhh the pay was like 10 days late lor! Pffft. That explains why I was going through all the hustling all week. I hope all's gonna be better though. And Nadd works at Marmalade too, now! Heh heh heh. Such a motivation for me to work more. Hahaha.

Okay, so I waited for Nadd till she finished and then we were supposed to meet Amir and Alias. And when we reached the carpark, even Ody, Baqir, Faizal and Mok was there. See lah. When it's the least expected, everyone decides to turn up zzzzzz. So we went for supper cos they all is hantu lapar. Heh heh heh.

All 8 of us had teh tarik!!! Hahaha. Super TTL moment! :P And then we talked about Sticky Date and stufffffs. Oiiiiii, one by one very clever lah part part gini. Especially Nadd. Hahaha. Dah besar betul ni budak. Lol.

After that everyone went home. Balik rumah sendiri eh, tak balik rumah orang lain. Hahahahaha. Nowwww, I need to sleep! 2.30am already and I need to wake up at 7am. :( Tomorrow's my HIS module and I don't wanna be late again. New year eh. Supposed to turn over a new leaf already. :P

Goodnight everyone.

all american rejects much?

2010-01-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

I was FB-ing just now and then this weird Vinay person started talking to me. Apparently he was on my friend list and this was our conversation (if you're interested to read lol).

1:37amVinay
whats up
hi
guess who's this

1:40amVinay
u'll be suprised

1:41amMeow
hmmm who?

1:41amVinay
yang

1:41amMeow
guo yang?

1:42amVinay
hey how you know????
haha
how
are you man?

1:42amMeow
freaking dont bluff meeeeee

1:42amVinay
alright

1:42amMeow
rlly uh guo yang?

1:42amVinay
u got
msn
WANNA WEBCAM

1:42amMeow
got
hahaha
okay

And there you have it. Freaking reunion gilerrrrr. I haven't seen this motherfire in ages and suddenly he's all grown up. Hahaha. Okay, wanna continue catching up and suddenly I'm not sleepy anymore.

I could stand by the side

2010-01-12T00:20:00.004+08:00

I am home now and web-camming with 2 persons. If you know who one of them is, you will be shocked. The other one just never fails to make me smile even when he is talking about how ugly my eyebrows are. :) Oh, and I have leftover bits of what I wrote earlier on in the afternoon, too.

Hi. It’s 4.05pm now and my UT starts in 25min. I think I’m going to fail. Firstly, I didn’t study. As much as I love Financial Accounting (surprisingly), I don’t find the will to actually study for it. I’m aiming for a safe C today. Lol. As I’m typing right now, I can see my stomach bulging out and being an intrusion to the outside world. I sit with a leg shaking and like a domino, the bulge is swaying itself steadily, contented with all the Koko Krunch, Honey Stars Cookie Crisps and Milo cereals that it has had for brunch.

Ifad just gave me a message and he’s outside at KK with Halimi. I don’t know about you but no matter how rough I think we both are, there’s this surprising allure about the boy that makes me smile every time, even when I was feeling shitty about my lost of placement and rights in love and probably only half of all the drama applies to life. We were on webcam all night until it was probably after 5am and then my eyes gave way. And yes, my webcam still fully functioning.

Another time check: 4.17pm

A few more minutes left before I start my bullshitting nonsense. I am good at bullshitting on paper. And it’s not good like how Balinese bullshits their tourists. It’s one of those see-through bullshits that do not get me any-freaking-where. You probably wouldn’t want to call me a bullshitter then. Haha.

Shahaireen once read a paper I did back when we were both still studying together and then looked up at me with a smirk, “You’re just bullshitting your way through aren’t you?”

Okay. Now I don’t understand the whole point of this self-conversation I am having. You do converse to yourself, too, right? I do that a lot when I am lonely, usually after being rejected. When I am waiting for someone alone and I have no other accompaniment other than my inner voice that doesn’t always give good advices or suggestions at that matter.

Or when I am lonely, I sing.

I want your love, I don't wanna be friends

2010-01-11T13:21:00.006+08:00

I don’t know about the rest of you but my 2009 ended off with a bang and 2010 started off so extremely well for me that it gave me the opportunity to make the right decisions, meet the right people and begin with the right attitude. That was what I thought until something happened in the middle and it shook me. It made me re-think and re-evaluate myself and the people around me. No doubt, I have always been pleased with myself and as happy for the rest of the babygirls as well who seem to be doing great for themselves too. But probably it's about time we get a little more realistic.

A quick recovery on what I’ve been doing the past year.

Mr/Mrs RP at the start of the year which was a good experience despite having made stand between the skinniest girls in the world.
I extremely enjoyed Sharifah’s birthday party cum Expressoz’ BBQ get-together session @ ECP. It was truly a night to remember with so many laughs, as literal as can be!
Oh yes, and I had my first bangs since, forever?
A really fulfilling relationship with the most patient and wonderful person in the world.
I lost my phone. Zzzz. Twice! Double zzz.
Started being part of the Marmalade group thanks to a dearest blog-reader, which is really great because everyone calls me “Princess” there (and the pay’s awesome). I feel so loved. Hahahaha. And special. Lol.
I lost my phone on NYE of 2008 and apparently, someone from RP found it (in the cinema, like what are the odds?!) and returned it to me. Which is how now I have the most annoying bunch of boy-friends in school. (:
I made a lot of new friends and I really treasure each friendship I made.
And I wore a lot of jeans this year, which is kinda a big deal to me. It’s like a direct translation of “I don’t freaking care if I have an elephant’s trunk for thighs anymore”.
Zoukout this year was so freaking much better than last year’s. :P
My first countdown at Siloso Beach Party.
After Zoukout, it was pretty much the beginning of the downward spiral of my life which I brought upon myself. I hope to mend things this year.

I didn’t have a resolution until last night because I never really thought of it. But after last night, it kinda just spoke to me. I think I will work on it. (:

Lol, that wasn’t so quick afterall!

A few nights back, Niny tagged us babygirls with Destiny Child’s video of “Girl” and it somewhat reminded me to be happy for the fact that I have the most amazing bunch of girls in the world.

Slumber Partyyyyyyyyyy!

2010-01-11T11:52:00.006+08:00

On Christmas, we had a sleepover at Alba's. (: It was pretty impromtu and it was supposed to be just Alba, Nadd and myself but then like all other impromtu plans we have, it always turns out to be better than we expect.

Because we are so cute like that, we marched down to Prime and bought loads of goodies to fill up our stomachs since we weren't gonna sleep anyways. :P

And when we went back home, we painted our nails and stuff like that. Alba was like some mummy who was baking cupcakes of us which tasted damnnnnnnn good. It kinda tasted like butterscotch. Some of us helped her out and someone put too much of blue in one of the doughs to the point whereby eating the cupcake left our tongues blue. Hahaha.

Amir was so boring. All he did was watch videos on Youtube.

I had work the very like day, like whoaaaaaa. Haha. I didn't get much sleep but luckily Amir offered me to ride to work. Or else, I think I'd have slept in the train alllllllllll the way to Joo Koon kay. Hahaha.

(I'm in class now and 2 of my team-mates are trying to skip class. They were just about to pack their bags and leave but then my facilitator came into class. Their facial expressions were freaking priceless! :P)

Post-Zoukout & Pre-Christmas Party

2010-01-11T04:36:00.009+08:00

A week after Zoukout, as if it wasn't enough, we still headed out to party. As usual, we went to Zirca and what the fuck, my friend? We had 8 guys and all 8 guys were refused entry despite the fact that we're there almost every other week. Fucking bitchy, doncha think?

The boys went over to Zouk while Nadd, Catz and I proceeded ourselves. We paid already anyway. But then we stayed inside for about an hour and I gave up and pulled them to Zouk. The crowd @ Zirca sucked lah. And I'm glad I did because Zouk was awee awee awee awee-some. :P

Nadd and I went back to my place after that. The cutest thing about the way back home was that we were both frikkkkkking sleepy that we just kept yakking and yakking like nobody's business. Because we both didn't want to fall asleep and look like fools when we sleep with our heads bobbing up and down. Haha. :P

And then a few days before Christmas, we had a nice company get-together at Newton Food Centre for our company Christmas party. It was about 20+ of us and we ordered super alooooot of food that totalled to about $900 over, me think? The chefs got cartons after cartons of beer & they even had a few bottles of liqour. The best part of it was that everybody was working the next day. O_O As for myself, I was working at 12noon. I bet it wasn't surprising to them when I turned up stoning at 2pm. Lol.

Yup, you know this

2010-01-11T01:38:00.006+08:00

Because I was very free, I decided to collate the pictures that I've had for weeks now and if I don't fall asleep any sooner, I might just upload all of them. But we'll see the situation. I am now busying entertaining Sam and giving her my precious advices which are usually no-good on a daily basis. But I think this could work now. :) Also, I am getting over my depression by chatting with Ifad. He always makes me feel better without even trying.

What we have here are pictures from Zoukout 2009 which was the shit. :)

Broken-Hearted Girl

2010-01-11T01:29:00.001+08:00

Have you ever had this feeling whereby you were hoping that things are going to be better, that you are going to start anew and that you are going to clean up your mess behind you and open up that big, pretty door to the other side where the grass is greener?

I had that. And then right as I was about to open that door, I realised that it was locked and that it wasn’t meant for me to open. The key is a heart. The heart isn’t mine and the heart was never mine in the first place. I was delusional to think that someone like me deserves something as well.

I think it's time. Or about, I think.

2010-01-04T07:20:00.001+08:00

I reached home at like what? 2.30am last night after work and the whole get-together shit with the colleagues in the bar since 9pm and now I am bathed, up and ready to go for my first day of school.

P.S It's 7.20am. Please be amazed. :) Oh well, what can I say? It's 2010 already. :P

Make up your mind

2009-12-31T12:53:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone. :) I'm back and just in the right mood to party for the New Year! *Skips around* I'll be heading down to Siloso's Beach Party together with the rest of those who wants to go, lol. I hope everyone's gotten their tickets already!! I is super excited.

Anyways last night, right after I touched down home, I gave Ifad a call and 2 hours later.. he was already at Woodlands. He accompanied me to Lot 1 to pick up my pay and then we headed over to Simpang Bedok for our first dinner after a super long time (according to our calender, that is).

Blah blah blah and then we had this talk after we were done eating. He was there convincing me that he is very much in love and not in like and I sat there trying to stay serious and pay attention and then well, this morning.. right after what happened last night, he told me to forget everything he said. And all I did was ask Amir to send me back home. Pffffffffft. I don't get you. I don't get anything you're trying to do or trying to get me to understand.

See you're making me confused again. Are you in love with me or not? Ahhhh stuff like this really muddles me up. If you ask me, I'd say you're not. And since you are not, I am not either after listening to whatever you said, sooooo we can just forget it again.

Busy beeeee

2009-12-27T02:54:00.002+08:00

I didn't get much sleep last night and I'm definitely not getting any now :( The whole family will be leaving for KL via flight in approximately 2 hours and I'm still packing my bag!!!! -_- I don't really know what to bring or what to wear either.

I had like soooooo much trouble just picking out what to wear later on. What's new? Girls.

I wonder how the weather is like at Malaysia. Ifad was telling me that it'll be raining so maybe I'd pack my boots in as well? Heh heh heh. I wish I had bought those cool giler rain boots which I saw sometime last month (which of course, Ifad didn't let me buy because he's got no taste HAHAHA).

Hmmm gotta get back to work before I fall asleep infront of the desktop.
See you later, alligator.

sleeeeep only

2009-12-26T09:21:00.003+08:00

Rise and shine!!!! Heh heh heh I didn't sleep at all actually. Lol. :O My babygirls Alba and Nadd are sleeping like babies now while Sam and Niny already left for home.

I have work soon leh, at 12noon. So damn dreadful, especially since I'm only working till 4pm because I am so lazy but I still decided to work because I know they are short-handed on weekends. Tsk. So sweet kan I? Hahaha.

I'll be leaving for KL tomorrow morning. The flight is at 6am, I think? So I cannot party tonight in celebration of Andy's birthday. :( Andy's my cousin by the way. Hmmm, I hope I'll be meeting the girls later on after work for dinner or something. I still have yet to pack my bags so I'll probably have to reach home a little earlier than usual to get all my stuff ready. Don't wanna be kanchiong-ing early in the morning tomorrow.

Haiyah. I am so sleepy.

Sleepover

2009-12-26T00:26:00.003+08:00

The girls and I are at Alba's. :) We just came back Prime with a whole bag of goodies(!!!). Ice-cream, yoghurt drinks and other yummy stuff heh heh heh. Nadd's painting Sam's nails now and we're probably gonna start gossiping a little later. So much to catch up! Too bad Liyana already left via the last bus back home and Niny's coming later for a while only. :(

Catch you soon.

love

2009-12-25T12:09:00.004+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling sick to my stomach and the pain seemed to be amplified into a huge manifestation as I read your each and every word off that text you sent me. It ate me up slowly and with every pinch, it was almost as if I could feel myself breaking apart while you stood there watching me. Contented on your part. Deserving on mine.

:(

I'm waiting. Things will get better and I know it will. How can it not?

Don't "fuck" me. I'm lost.

2009-12-25T03:17:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. I'm confused.

Are we back together or are we not? Do I leave everything behind or should I start anew? Or maybe we could just live with the fact that you have an asshole who is in love with you and this asshole is confused and well, believe it or not, scared. You should know that I am. Everyone knows that. Or maybe they are overlooking the truth because there's too much drama around here. People's vision always get blurred when there's too much going on and yes my friend, it like a whirlpool in here.

I'm not feeling the sticky icky feeling yet, for the fact that I have been immuned. It's as if when I vowed to this responsibilty, I took a generous shot of some kind of vaccination that is on a mission to save me from the things that will make me or break me.

With all my heart

2009-12-25T03:09:00.002+08:00

Of course I love you. I will always love you. I love you, forget myself for while, get slapped back into reality and then realise how lucky I am to still have someone who loves me even though I am both probably and undoubtedly the most shittiest person in the world. And then I love you again and then the whole cycle continues round and round until someone decides to dig a huge hole in my path and I have to stop and learn how to just live on the edge of something and make the best out of it. Instead of constantly wondering around thinking that I am still looking for something and making other people confused and pissed with me.

For that, may I remind you that I still love you. So, why don't you go and dig up that hole for me. The bigger, the better. Goodnight now.

Guess who's back?

2009-12-22T03:04:00.004+08:00

Mannnnnn, today was such an absolute failure lah. Hahaha. :O

Supposed to meet Amir the moment he's in SG - Fail.
Supposed to meet babygirls for dinner at town - Fail.
Supposed to watch Avatar in 3D @ The Cathay - Fail.

Why? Because me and Amir (yes, we're talking about Amir Fareez, my dear) are total budak gemoks who ended up falling asleep. Techically #1 only applies to me and not Amir.

But we did send the car over back to the workshop at Ang Mo Kio though, before we hunted around AMK HUB in search for a UOB Bank and then hunting further around AMK central in search for food for me to eat. And then we went back to his place supposedly to rest while watching Fighting on the DVD but then we somehow fell asleep and woke up at 9.30pm. Pffffft.

So yalah, will probably get down to the movie some other day instead. :(

Although, I'm pretty excited for later. :) Marmalade's gonna be having a Christmas Party while the boys are having a last drinking session for 2009 at Cuscaden. Yums. I'll be knocking off from work at 8pm so I'll probably drop by Cuscaden before going to the party. I hope there's be lots of yummy Christmas food! Heh heh heh.

And now, gotta go wash up and wait for Amir to reach home. I hope I stay awake this time and not like all the other umpteen times I promised to stay awake. :P Haha.

2009-12-21T04:56:00.000+08:00

It's 4.56am and I just came home from supper cum chilling session with Amireux. We decided to meet up after the both of us knocked off from work. Super impromtu but it was really fun. (Yes inclusive of the trying to figure out how to go to Bukit Timah Rd without getting lost, lol.) Initial plans were to go to Simpang Bedok but then I was craving from Nasi Daging Merah instead heh heh heh so where else to get it better than at Al-Azhar, right? :P

And the bloody cheebye just had to piss me off by talking about ghosts right as I was about to go home. Super narbey that that one. Grrrrr I is very irritated. Hahaha. Okay, moving on.

Amir's coming back to Sg from Penang in about an hour or so :P Heh heh heh I'm waiting for him now because he's supposed to pick me up once he's here. We'll probably go have breakfast because I am (not) surprisingly hungry, again! Hahaha.

The last picture I took with Amir on the day before the left.

That was last week (technically, cos it's kinda Monday morning already) when we went to party in the USA in wedges. And surprisingly, everyone did turn up in their heeeeeeels eh? Not bad uh, atleast heels and wedges tak jauh. So semangat kan one by one :P Hahaha.

The night was fun. :) I even bumped into Ifad and the other boys there! HEH HEH HEH. Suke lah bodoh. Takkan tak suke. :P We talked things out for a bit in the smoking room (which is really weird because we don't really have anything to talk about) and then hugged and made up (which is also weird because I don't think we have anything to make up for) and we were okay already lah basically. Pfft. Hahahaha. I still love you lah baby, doncha worry! Haha.

Amir came to Clarke Quay after we finished partying and accompanied Nadd, Jaz and I for breakfast. We stayed there for a good 2 hours probably and I headed home only at 7am which was probably a little too late because it started raining. But because we live in the fact of danger (or that I am just extremely stubborn), we still went home via bike and well, it wasn't so bad afterall lah hor. Kene hujan tak mati what?

The next day, I met these girls! I was supposed to meet Amir before he left for Penang but he had to leave early and sooooo.. went over to Tiong Bahru instead after I was done with my shopping. I bought the cutest booties in the world and a new hobo bag. :) Yummy, I love!

We girls are so cute lah. We chilled at Macs before getting lost while trying to walk to Spize and then, we had ice-cream together and a whole lot of catch-ups and shared secrets like we always do. :) I had sooo much fun laughing and giggling with them. Super can't wait to do it again. :P Alba, Sam and I are currently talking about doing a sleepover soon @ Alba's. I hope this plan works out uh. We could do mani/pedi, give each other massages and dress up silly. Sound exciting eh? :O

OKAY. I was rattling on earlier about supposingly meeting Amir @ 6am and I actually fell asleep midway without posting my entry since I wasn't done with blogging. What the fuckkkkkkkkk? Hahaha I am an absolute failure to the highest level. When I woke up, I had like 18 missed calls? :O Haha. Now I am up and ready, taken a bathe and smelling of raspberries and officially waiting for Amir who will probably be here in about 15 min.

So time check: Now is 12.59pm.

I went to meet the girlies again on Friday. :) We were contemplating on a lot of things for plans such a karaoke, supper at Spize, supper at Lau Pa Sat, Zouk for Steve Angello and well a fuckload of other plans but 2 hours later, we found ourselves at Newton Food Court.

I'm thinking of what to eat and checking out movie timings for Avatar online. Everyone's been talking about what a great movie is and I'm excited to watch it lah hor. Okay, Darlene's home from buying her school books. She just squinted at me and went, "I haven't seen you in such a long time seh."

I think I'm missing out on life at home. Gotta go anws :)

Proud giler!

2009-12-19T19:43:00.002+08:00

Darwin: Kak, Awin masuk Sec 5 tau.
Meow: Wah, really? Brape points?
Darwin: 16.
Meow: Huh?
Darwin: 16.
Meow: Huh?
Darwin: 16.
Meow: Huh?! Asal boleh 16 pulak?! (Yes, I actually did "Huh" that much haha. Confused pe aku.)
Darwin: Oh pasal new syllabus. Must pass 5 subjects and get below 19 points.
Meow: Wahhhhhh I so happy for you. *Hugs him by his head like mad cos I was standing and he was sitting down*
Darwin: Heh heh heh, takde present?
Meow: =__________________= *Walks away*

I’m so proud lah of this idiot. Danial and I were seriously betting that he was going to fail you know.

(Because really, this boy never studies like ever or maybe he doesn’t show us and all he does is play soccer and skate. Danial and I would always worry of how to react if one day he comes home with tattoos of fishes on his hand haha.)

But yalahhhh, he evidently proved all of us wrong. :) Next major exam for him will be O levels. :P Eeeeee, so excited padahal it won't even be me taking the exam. Hahaha.Anyways. It’s 7.42pm and I just woke up. I just wanted to share the good news before I go. :P Off to get ready now and head to Clarke Quay to meet Nadd, Ody, Audi and Elaiza.

In the meantime, don’t naughty naughty uh you all. (:

2009-12-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

I hope what you all just said about Ifad at Zoukout was right man!!!!!! Pffffft he was telling me of how wasted he was at Zoukout and where was I? Enjoying myself with another guy. And if he really was with another girl, it makes whatever he just told me totally contradicting. Eeyer, nevermind.

Anyway, going out now to party in the USA with the girlies again. :) Amir's already downstairs to pick me up and here I am still ranting away. What's new? Anywayyyyyy.. today we're all in

WEDGES! HEHEHE.

Well I hope everyone is, as we planned. :P

Ele-elevator

2009-12-14T14:30:00.009+08:00

Okay. You win hor. Ifad and I broke up already. I don't remember why, because I expected a short argument (which is an argument about the most useless of stuffs, by the way). I didn't expect it to lead to a permanent break-up whereby he has returned me all my stuffs back. :( This sucks. Where my babygirls at? I am in need to boogeying my sorrow away. Lol. That's just so typical isn't it? Oh well, beats bloating up my stomach at home with Ben & Jerry's and trying to understand what the fuck is happening on CSI.

Niny and I trashed Arena last Wednesday for their free drinks, while waiting for Nadd, Eliza and Alep. It could have just been us two but we make it work, baby! :P

I love the whole colour turnout of the picture, don't you? :P We probably stayed until close to 12midnight and then we had to meet the rest already.

Bumped into Cat and I dragged her and our little Amber along to get our chops before meeting the rest. And it's been long since I last met Audi hor. We're talking centuries here.

Blacks

Greys

I love my people!

Meh heh hehhhhhh, I'm doing my Elevator Pitch now. So freaking scary because my faci seriously chews people up and spits them out like gum. I am expecting to freak out during my presentation later. Hahahaha, good luck to me!

tag replies

2009-12-14T10:18:00.002+08:00

khaty
wei, me is ur senior in pri sch. saw u at zoukout. apparantly u knew my frens as well n senget nmpk? haha. niway looking good ther i see.
- It's a small world! Heh heh, and of course I remember you lah dey. :P

to many names
tu soalan ke sarcastic eh? hmm...
- Lol, was wondering too. But let's not be judgemental.

many names
ur posts these days asik about late nights and partying je.i dont think that's all u ever do?
- Actually, I'm currently busy working after school so when I'm done, my only options are pretty much only late nights and partying.

321
u guys shud just stop arguing. sendiri meow kate jgn layan anak suar ni mcm. makin dilayan makin menjadi jadi. bwk mengucap semua.
- Some people just don't listen, my friend.

!
hey wld appreciate if u reply.whr u buy ure scarves from? (:
- Everywhere my dear! Haha, although Accessorize do sell tonnes of pretty scarves.

Attica
Your tagboard is forever happening. Take care!
- That's because people are forever getting bored with their own lives.

endna
hey meow i was the one sitting next to you when you went for smoke break
behind lot one (: i wanna call u tapi takot tk kenal hehe. you smiled at me(: I
saw you twice and commented here twice too lol. Have a good day ahead pretty.
- Oh I remember. :) I shall go and memorise your face so I can say
Hi the next time I see you. :D Hahaha.

hai!
yeah i just realised that ifad looks like edward!!!
- Hahah it took you long enough. :P

Baky
Meow! you using the Vaio netbook kan? is it like convenient for school purposes? anw, link me back!
- So far, not so bad eh. But I haven't configured it yet so can't really tell whether they work with school programs.

Vee
that girl, you can't tell someone to be something that you want her to be. like you said, Meow lives her own life, so let her be herself -.- okay, phew. anyway, hi Meow. have a good weekend
- Hi Vee. As a matter of fact, I did have a really great weekend. Heheh.

tgif!

2009-12-11T11:28:00.004+08:00

I wish I wasn't so clumsy so as not to bring my camera. I wanted to show you what we did on Wednesday night. :P Looks like I have to wait till later.

(But this is a rough overview of the night, which someone just tagged on my FB)

Anyways, I wasn't working on Wednesday and the girls were pestering me all day to party with them. I didn't wanna go at first because I was really broke to the max. Like a hustler to the highest level kind of shit. (Reason: My pay is being delayed. The horror! Notice the is that I used in the sentence. I have't gotten it still, you know? And it's been like 11 days? Pffft.)

I only had my last $50 to buy my outfit for Zoukout, which I did right before I met Niny. We had super so much fun even though it was just the 2 of us, kan babyyyyyyy? :P

And now, something is happening. To us.
I should have known better.

2009-12-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

I will not change for anyone but myself.

tag replies

2009-12-09T14:55:00.002+08:00

Haiyah I got so many tags to reply! :( Should blame myself for being away for too long. I only replied to the last 4 pages because all the pages after that were tags that we're mostly full of bullshit.

tiya cullen
your Ifad first glance looks like edward cullen. second glance like edward cutlet. ;P ...and i think you & edward cutlet look very pretty together. ^-^
- Thanks for the compliment. Ifad may look like Edward but Jacob's the in thing now. Hahaha, kan kan kan?

err
i think jacob black looks like he's on steroid! & imagine his only what 17??? yuck!
- Nolah, I don't think he looks too bad. Quite hot eh he. But then again, not all 17 year olds Caucasian looks 17,

syaajepon
hello. im just a passerby. tc!
- Hi dear. :) You take care too :P

funk
i saw meow and family at woodlands market.
- The last time I saw my family or ever went out with them was like on Aidiladha.

pleasereply
what brand of makeup do u use?u always look so effortlessly pretty.
- I used to use Silkygirl for about a year plus. But I've recently changed to Maybelline's Angelfit Series. That's quite good too but a little more pricier of course :)

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hey meow,where did u get that cute pink bag & harlem pants?so so cute!anyways meow,all these hatetaggers,dont even bother about them..they're just a bunch of people with no life..
- I got the bag from an online store that used to set-up booths in RP. That was like when I was in first year :P The pants is from Bugis, I think? Haha.

pssrby
hey whts the brand of your foundation n compact pwdr?
- Maybelline.

Naddie
hey babe may i know whats the name of the apartment suite that you stayed in KL?
- Crowne Regency

erny
hey babe, erny here. see ya around pretty...
- Babyyyyy I thought you were gonna leave your link! :P Haha.

ehem!
lio&!, can u plz say who alba is copying? i mean, c'mon, meow is her gf what!
- Yes, I think so too. Besides, I'm not the only one using a Sony Vaio and anyways, laptops are so cheap nowadays!!! She could have gotten it as well coincidentally what.

ifad ly
I cut my hair already so no more edward. haha but meow can still be my bella. and u'll be alice cullen).
- Me don't want to be Bella. Helloooooo Bella and I are like exact opposites. Even you said so!

!meow fan
i still love all ur clothes
- Haha, thanks!

liyanaezzaty
idiotlove will always love her idiotlove . meow can be bella, ifad can be edward ! nyehaaaa . still cant get it out of my head . lol .
- Tak nak jadi Bella. Aku nak Gabriella from High School Musical or Miley heh heh heh. And I love you too baby!

!
You guys will make good babies.
- Think so? Haha.

mimi
eh!!! siapa ni mimi? I is the mimi giant. that 'mimi' i dontknow! imposter!
- You should tag as Mimi Giant from now on.

mimi
hmmmm okay la i'll give you n ifad about 4 mths max 5 mths. we'll see
- I don't see why you need to put a time limit on our relationship. Grow up lah.

many names
it's the first time after a long time since i read an entry where it's apparent u're in love since the shaharil(sp?) days.
- Lol, I didn't realise that at all and that was 3 years back. You've been reading my blog that long or did you just go through the archives?

Dempsey tak jadi.

2009-12-09T11:44:00.005+08:00

The one thing I don't like most about planning with my babygirls is that... none of us are ever punctual for our meet-up. I mean, really.

Last week, we were supposed to have desserts over at Ben & Jerry's at Dempsey Hill. So, the reporting time (heh heh heh) was 4.30pm at Orchard Station. I was from school so the earliest that I could reach was 4.50pm which was approximately the time I reached and then kan.. when I called them, Nadd said that she wasn't joining us till later & Niny just left home. As for Sam, I called and called her but she didn't pick up and when I finally got through, apparently I had been calling the wrong number.

7pm okay. It wasn't until 7pm that I finally met them and while waiting, I did a damn load of damage! I bought so many things within 2 hours to the point that I had this huge bag filled with goodies and almost no $$$ left. Hahaha. :P Once again.. me, money and a lot of time on hand don't go well together.

We had dinner at Ayam Penyet instead. :) Because it was too late to be having dessert and we were all super famished anyways. We choose Ria because it has the most awesome ayam penyets in the worlddddddd!!!! Super yummy and has lots of the crusty bits.

We did like a whole bunch of catch-ups during dinner. :P So many things to talk about because it's been like the longest ever since we had a Just-Us-Babygirls get-together. Fana joined us soo after when we had finished our dinner. And she was in a dress ehhhhh. Hahaha, babygirls punya pasal eh Fana? :P

We took the bus to Central and chilled there. Talked a whole lot of bullshit: about relationships, life, shared secrets, planned more outings together and talked about our future. Haiyah, I miss the good old times when none of us were such busy bees.

Fana forever muka tak sopan. Pfft.

I miss you babygirls. And and and, next get-together will be at Seoul Garden okay! It will be the week after Zoukout so those who need to save up, please do nowwwwww! $30 enough already. :P We shall go create an event on FB soon k, heh heh heh.

evacuate the dancefloor

2009-12-02T13:48:00.005+08:00

Through all the little unecessary arguments that Ifad & I have (which is a lot considering the fact that he thinks I am so bitchy and I think that he is so ignorant), it's shitty things you readers make me go through that builds us up.

I was walking to the coffeeshop to look for Ifad but I bumped into him along the way, coming in my direction. I think he was going to my class to look for me. I don't know. That's just a guess, but I don't think that there can be other better guesses than that.

So we went to our secret space, smoked 1 stick in total silence (which was very awkward for me because me and silence don't go well together) and then started being in love again because well.. I know we're stronger and better than this. So I'm really glad and it's really comforting for me when Ifad continuously tries to assure us of how much we are in love and how little the matter is. Yes, we are so cute like that.

Anyway, we were harbouring yesterday over a totally different rumour which Ifad heard once upon a time and one which I found out through my hatetag once upon a time as well. But it's all good. He probably had a little too much to drink last night at Cuscaden. :) As for the hatetags now,may I reassure you that it still is a whole lot of bullshit which I couldn't care less about.

And for the people who still love and support me through whatever with your lovetags, secret messages on FB and personal messages on my MSN, thank you. You the best, my friend.

Anyways, I've got some bad news. :( I know all my babygirls are going to Dempsey this weekend but unfortunately, I won't be able to make it this time around! :( I have a tahlil to go to for the passing on of my friend's father. I think she will appreciate my presence there and I feel my presence there is important as well.

I will see you girls the week after. :)

You knowwwww... I felt so shitty this morning because I thought Ifad was angry with me. So I bought a whole box of Muesli bars. Hahahaha. I said to him, "It's the closest I can get to you since you like Muesli bars." Heh heh heh yes, I is so corny like that.

Speaking of that! I wanna tell you something. Mhhh, it's a conversation I had with Ifad last week, I think? But it never gets old to me.

Ifad: B, how do you pronounce "Mhhhh"?
Meow: *Make the sound while trying to hold back a giggle* Like that ah.
Ifad: So.. when you say that, means you're happy ah?
Meow: Nolah. Doesn't mean that way.
Ifad: But you were smiling what just now?
Meow: I'm smiling because I'm happy to be with youuuu.
Ifad: EH CAN YOU STOP IT WITH YOUR CORNY SHIT OR NOT?!

=____________=
Kau tengok ni anak. Sedih aku. Merana ni silence. Hahahaha.

Okay, I'm finished with class already. :)
I'll try and find time to reply back all your (important) tags.
So many or what! I like. Hahaha.

let me tell you one time

2009-12-01T23:27:00.004+08:00

I have been so patient. I have been so fucking patient about everything you people say, all the accusations you make, all the stories you decide to whip up in your free time. And each time, it gets worst and worse. Even through all that, I never let it affect me and as much as possible, I try not to let it affect the ones I love.

Tonight, it was as if he looked at me in disgust, believing all the fucking bullshit you assholes make.
I hope you're happy.

P/S. Thank you, Adi. For all the times. We're stronger than this. Always have been.

it involves some heavy touching yeah

2009-12-01T09:34:00.012+08:00

You could say that I had a rough weekend, beginning from Friday. First off, I ate a lot. Oh man, reallllllly k. Because I haven't been having proper lunches for the past 2 weeks, always skipping lunch and I never really have time for breafast. So when Aidiladha came and I was literally forced to eat and eat and eat, it got me an upset stomach by 2pm. :( Sad life.

Aidiladha wasn't anything much. we just visited our Atok, making sure to catch him before he leaves for his Friday prayers and then we went to Tante Limar's house to eat.

With Danial

My 2 idiots.

With Darwin

I went to Courts at Woodlands with my family before going home, to get me my new laptop. Everyone was growling about why I didn't get it from the IT fair or something because it would have been so much better and more worth it but well, to tell you the truth... malas lah. :( Expo is so freaking far. Zzzz.

You could say that my Aidiladha was boring because it didn't seem as if we did anything much anyways. I got home and everyone seemed too tired to handle my nonsense. Even Darlene was too tired to play with me since she was busy being a workaholic all morning. I ended up calling everyone up and everyone was busy with their family gatherings. Zzzz.

And then I ended up meeting Ifad at City Hall at 10.30pm to party. It was Supperclub for the night. (: Yummy. I have this love for Supperclub, for some reason I do not know.

I partied in heels that night. Pretty much a first for me. And well, it wasn't as bad as I had thought. :) There weren't any other girls around that night so I was mostly around Ifad and when I wasn't, well.. it was a different experience and it brought us to learn more about each other.

Diligently, we stayed on the dancefloor until it was over and walked over to our secret space and slept until it was almost morning. It was 6.30am when we realised that it was morning already. Instead of taking the train home, which I cannot be bothered to endure in that state of tire, we cabbed back instead to my place.

It was 2 hours after I got home that I realised that I lost my baby!!!! :( My cute pink LG360 which I love with all my heart. :( Haiyah sad. I was like growling all day about the difficulty in contacting people and being cut off from the connection to the other sideeeee!!!! (Whatever that means.) I went to work feeling sad. But okay lah, atleast it gives me an excuse to get a new phone. :)

Currently thinking of getting the LG Cookie because of how cute it looks. Ifad wants me to get the Motorola Razr in Pink and even though yes, I agree that it looks so adorable.. I've used it before and the battery stinks. :( Besides, I still want a QWERTY keypad phone heh heh heh. :) Feeling feeling sidekick lah kan.

I had a date with Ifad after work. The motherfire was an hour late though. Zzzzz forever 21 uh this one. He really has a problem with punctuality. Pffft.

Actuallllllllllllly, we were planless. Hmm. We didn't really plan our date so after dinner, we were lost as to where to go. Typically, we decided to catch a movie. Mhhhhhh what else to do? :( Lucky for us, New Moon was already showing. Yayness. This boy mestilah excited lah tengok. The only thing was that the next available movie was in 2 hours time. Still, we didn't mind. So we bought the 12.15am tix.

In the mean time, we chilled at Bluelight. Yaaaaaa tell me about it, of all places.

But anywayyyyyys, New Moon was great lor. :) I sampai menggeletar okay tengok Jacob Black. Heh heh hehhhh. So hot, I like. I think the Edward Cullen is boring already. Hahahaha. He looks so the kerepot already lor. I don't like. Hahaha.

Okay, anyways.. today is my first day of using my new laptop. :) Love it so far. I went to school graciously today with my laptop in my bag and it was so light. Yummy! I love. Even so, I cabbed to school because I was late heh heh heh.

Class is going to end soon. Hopefully Ifad comes soon. We're on a mission today.

we aint gonna live forever

2009-12-01T03:08:00.003+08:00

It's 3am and we're still on video call, talking about nothing at all and pissing the hell out of each other like always as if it is our daily ritual. And of course, being in love.

no love

2009-11-28T10:14:00.001+08:00

I think I have extremely bad news. :(

giddy yup

2009-11-27T20:03:00.003+08:00

Currently getting ready to meet Ifad at City Hall. So farrrrr pfft. I bet it'll be a lonely ride. We're rocking out Supperclub tonight. :P I hope it will be fun. Hmm, wonder if there's a dress code because I don't really know what to wear :/

meet me halfway

2009-11-27T17:24:00.001+08:00

Say hello to my new baby!

Rugged Friday

2009-11-25T15:15:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, the Expressos had another one of our very rare (no doubt, always really awesome because they are a really great bunch) get-together. It was in celebration of some of our belated birthdays namely mine, Yatee’s and Wina’s.

We had it at Nabins even though some of us were contemplating on Hooters or Loof. Maybe the next time around! :D

Nabins somewhat reminded me of Balcony/Supperclub. They had these really nice cushions and the ambience was really great. But all of us were smoker and we were planning to sheesha so we couldn't get a table inside. (Apparently, it's smoke-free zzz.) So we had to sit outside which was not as bad as I thought, actually.

Nurul Ayin

Yatee

Meow

Fendi

Still me.

Sharie

You can never really get enough of me, lol.

See Sharie's face, so mentel.

I think I stayed till about 11.30pm and then Ifad came to pick me up for our TTL's Rugged Friday. :D I introduced him to the rest and we had to rush off quickly because we were late. Supposedly, we were to meet them at like 9pm, I think? So we took a cab which wasn't too bad lah because it was only $8 to Bedok.

We found the guys at he Floating Deck and the fun began.

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I think we were there until about 6am and then me and Ifad took the bus back home. We were going to walk home but then looking at our condition, doesn't seem advisable at all. But I had a lot of fun that night and thanks thanks thanks thanks to the people who were so sweet enough to offer warmth to me that night, although I didn't realise it lol.

Ogay! Gonna be presenting now. I'm so cold that I'm shivering, again. :( I hope this lesson ends quickly because I'm so hungry too. Siew Mai sounds really good right now. Hehehe, laters.

contented

2009-11-25T11:53:00.004+08:00

All is better. She added Ifad on FB and was sending private messages to each other all morning. She sent me the message log over MSN for me to read and it was so cute. I'd really like to share it with you guys but there's probably a reason why they sent each other private messages instead of wall comments. :)

Whatever it is, I'm glad she's talking to Ifad. I love you both! :P

lost

2009-11-25T00:30:00.003+08:00

I thought of coming home to blog about my day. But I went on FB and saw this.

On Dinnie's page.

On my page.

I don't know about you. But it made me sad.
I am clueless as to why she said that. :(

Yanneh's 22nd!

2009-11-23T14:35:00.011+08:00

Wah it's so cold today, in class :( My baby's not here to lend me his jacket. I think he's on his way to school already tapi even if he brings an outerwear pon, I'd have finished class by the time he reaches. Mhhh buang mase. Yalah, I is veli lazy whattttt. Bringing a jacket to school means that I will have that added few grams to carry. Kan memenatkan!

My lesson is going start soon and we're doing a debate. Yay, me love debates. :D So much more entertaining as compared to doing presentations. I always fall asleep during (boring) presentations but I can never fall asleep during debates because I kan so semangat like that! Hehehe.

So while they preparing to yak away, here's un update about my weekends. I'd like to blog about TTL's Rugged Friday event but I think that Yan's birthday is more important because I put a lot of effort into it, lol.

I came home at about 7.30am on Saturday morning and only took a few hours of sleep (3 hours to be exact) and then I got Dinnie to bathe and change with me and go to Causeway. Because we needed to get more goodies for our Abang Yan. We spent about 2 hours in Causeway Point trying to find apparel boxes, gift bags and the perfect card. After that, we went home and started out wrapping mission.

Hehehehe, yes that's my room. So messy kan! But I was suchhhhhhhhh a good girl yesterday. I cleaned my room the whole day, polish perabot, vacuuuuuuum sini sana, lipat baju, clear out drawers, sampai lap walls for the dust all. Hehehe. Now it's so sparklyyy! Nak kahwin dengan I tak? LOL. Okay sorry, sidetrack sikit.

I picked up the cake and went to meet Nadd at Clementi. Initially, I invited alot of my girlfriends along but then, one by one couln't make it. :( Sedih I. Semangat-semangat dah plan, you know. It was then left with me, Nadd, Sam, Niny, Faan and the birthday boy. So I met Yan at FEP and brought him to Pastamania for the surprise lah konon. (I think he knew about it already lah, pasal I was so obvious asik message message Nadd only.)

Yan turns 22 already! So old already.

Mango Cake that's so yummy! Hahaha, pandai I pilih cake. LOL.

All the gooey goodness!

After cutting the cake, we ordered our food and since there was so little people and they actually made an effort to come, I decided to treat them. Sekali sekalajugak what. And while waiting, we made Yan open his bag of presents.

See those 2 big gold gift bags? Hmmmp dah macam hantaran! HAHA.

Nadd muka burok.

My Marinara. Yummys!

Yan's boring Lasagne. He alwayyyyyyyyyyys has Lasagne, even at STE.

The dress code for that was was like Black & White, unintentionally. :P

Niny suka shiok sendiri!

Babygirlllllllllls!

My new set of bangles. Suke!

Too bad Alvin's in SOL or else he'd be in the picture too.

Yan had to leave earlyyyyy because he needed to go back to his cousin's wedding at Tampines. So it was left with us. :( And we were allllllllll planless. Nadd and I gatal, wanna go to the Gym hehehehe but then we skipped that idea. Maybe next week okay. :P I have a feeling you readers have no idea what I'm talking about but nevermind! HAHA.

I went home via the NR. Badot was in the same NR as me, lol. Lama oi tak jumpe. He asked me to sit with him at the back but I declined cos I is shy. He has sooooo many friends sitting around him and I was fearful of feeling left out so I just stayed at my seat infront and messaged him imstead.

:P That's all. I'd consider that I went back prettttty early leh. 2am and I was home already. Such a major difference as compared to the previous weeks. And where was Ifad the whole time? At home. Zzzzz. WHAT ARE YOU DOING AT HOME ON A SATURDAY NIGHT, MY FRIEND? Double zzz. Nevermind, atleast he kinda made it up to me yesterday by alighting near the highway and walking all the way to Vivo to meet me because I was sulking HAHAHA.

*Kening naik naik*
I is so perangai budak-budak.